I check in with my coach on Tuesdays and Saturdays. I got up this morning and weighed and measured myself first thing, and while the scale didn't reveal much, the mirror is being kind to me. :) I'm fighting hard to see the number on the scale represented as 13X prior to going into peak week, but I'm not going to get hung up on a number. I can see tremendous gains in muscle from the past year of consistently lifting heavy, and I know that my weight will reflect that. I will never see the 12X again - and for that, I'm thankful! I still have high hopes for Saturday's weigh-in, though, when the scale is typically kinder to me. I'll just say, too - my coach has NEVER represented my goal as an ideal weight. He goes by what he sees in my pictures and week-to-week progress - that number goal is mine and mine alone.
I had a blast shooting with Doug Jantz at a chilly photo shoot Friday. It wasn't my first photo shoot, but I haven't done a whole lot of them, so it's always a little nerve-wracking going into one - for me, at least. This time, it was even more so - I made the decision to take my little girl, and I decided to go in authentically me: no hair extensions, no tan, no fake nails...I did my own makeup and the only thing that wasn't mine were the eyelashes! These photos were about so much more than creating the facade of who I want the world to perceive me as. They represent the genuine, vulnerable me - my life in Christ, my passion for my little girl/family and being fit, and being gloriously imperfect. Here are a few samples:
In a world of filters, photoshop, and "selfie perfection", I would be lying if I said I didn't have reservations about sharing pasty white pics of myself on the internet to live on forever and ever. I didn't dehydrate, carb up, or do anything special for these photos. I ate breakfast that morning, ate a massive pre-workout meal, trained legs, and ate a massive post-workout meal...all BEFORE this shoot. This is how I look, every day, around 6 in the evening. This is ME.
In my heart, I know the calling and passion God has given me. I know that if I want to empower women to embrace themselves in all their glorious, unique beauty, if I desire to motivate women to be powerful ambassadors for Christ, I must lead by example. I have to let faith be my guide, not fear. My prayer is that all the women (and men!) reading this blog would be encouraged to be themselves, and to let the glory of God shine through them in all that they do, even the unglamourous, mundane tasks. Be you. Be happy. Be bold...for Christ!
I hope you all have a fabulous week. Until next time...
TRAIN HARD - LIFT HEAVY - FUEL YOUR BODY - FEED YOUR FAITH
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